Who I am I?
I am a chick with crazy pink hair who loves music. It is the blood that runs through my veins and sustains me. And how did I get here?
Brought up in a strict religious family I didn’t have a lot of friends as a kid and those that I did were expected to also be a part of the religion as outsiders were frowned upon. Funnily in prep I did make one outside friend and we are still friends to this day. I came across very shy as a kid and teenager not I think because I truly was but more because I didn’t have anything to talk about with the other kids (and of course wasn’t supposed to anyway.) It’s hard as a kid when everyone around you spent the weekend playing sports and attending each other’s parties and all you did was religious stuff and didn’t celebrate anything. My escape was always reading and writing. Carefully approved books but places to escape none the less. So, escape I would into my books and my creative writing. I also remember there always being a guitar in our house. It was mum’s and I rarely saw it played but it was always a fascination for me. There was always a lot of music being played not the current tunes of the day but older stuff, Johnny Cash, Frank Sinatra, The Irish Rovers, Glen Campbell, Dolly Parton and such. This formed my early grounding of music and still influences my music today. I like that the music told a story through the lyrics and it is how I write as an adult.
I was a smart kid and a bit of a teachers favourite as I understood adults better than other kids my age as I spent so much time around them. I continued to ace my classes in school and when I started high school I joined the school band playing the flute and quickly became one of the lead flutists. I also loved my drama classes as I was able to by myself without judgement. Social interaction however became even more awkward as I developed and entered my teenage years and started to attract male attention. I had no idea how to handle this and had few close friends to be able to help me. For me dating wasn’t something that kids did until they were considering getting married and then it was always chaperoned! So, I withdrew further into my books, creative writing and music while starting to lose my love of school. Put simply I was bored so at the age of 15 I decided to leave school much to the dismay of my teachers.
By this point I was well and truly disillusioned with religion but didn’t know how to express it. I started to secretly date a boy that worked in the same shopping centre as me and would continue to do so on and off for the next few years. While I was not a rebel in the sense that most would consider it in My World I was! At the age of 18 I moved out of school to enter higher study, a diploma course at a TAFE, however I think it was truly about trying to start finding myself. I kept up the religious appearance for nearly a year till I met a boy online and fell madly in love. While the relationship only lasted about a year or so the decisions that I made about my life during this time changed the course of my life forever.
I broke away and spent a year without family knowing where I was (they knew I was safe) as I needed time to I guess look in and discover who I was. Many things didn’t change I have always been a loving caring person, the one that you come to talk to, however I started to find the bright vibrant person that was lurking just below the surface, the person that joined the school band in high school and who loved drama class so much. In the years since I made that important break I have lived so much and done so many things that I would never have dreamed of doing. I do not feel any negativity for my childhood I had what I needed to live and was never neglected but I am now able to be my true self. I feel that my past is my past and nothing will ever change it and to be honest I never would as it would change who I am today, but it’s how I use those experiences that make me the person that I am. I love to help people and to tell stories and I hope that through my music I can give you something that you were looking for or even something that you didn’t know that you needed. I am not the latest teeny bopper but I hope that I have more interesting stories to tell.